Emotion Intervention Gaslighting Insanity

I had a wild dream last night that I hardly want to explain.

But… I had the best day yesterday in real life… but then last nights dream was basically like my ENTIRE family, extended family - everyone family related being so inauthentic it was unreal (it was, it was a dream).  I don’t even want to type it out hahah.  But… it was even friends of family members there - all trying to like “spend time with me” quality time, but out of force and obligation and then wondering why I wanted to be alone. 

And none of the doors worked; they were all like saloon doors.

There were also some girls there who I met last night, but one was a triplettes and then they’d won this little like toy that was a doorway with two entrances and it turns out they’d put it in front of hteir room to decorate the doorway entrance and it looked so cute (but this is so hard to describe thatI don’t even hardly want to try).  But it was so cute and they were nice and one triplette was doing a lot of coloring and then another wanted to be a model/acress and I’d taken her to an audition with me and her brother.  Cuase it was two sisters one brother as the triplettes.  

Just like one family member wanted to spend time with me but its only cuase they felt they had to and I justwas like, no I dont’ want to spend time with you. its fine. come back when you really want to. and they were liek I want to, waht do you want to do?  All whle the rest of my family literlaly came over to watch and like spectate us having fun?  And i was liek dude, you dont even enjoy doing anything with me.  You’ve never once spent time with me not also watching tv or playing on your phone or wahtever.  Just don’t even bother and then the entire audinec ewas like, trying to peer pressure me into it. All these things. 

Even freinds of my family members were trying to advocate for how amazing their friends were and I was just laughing at their face, like, wow… they have these sides they hide of themselves and never reveal to their friends.  Cause I know Im not wrong, I know I dint make this up, and the behavior I’ve seen from them is so cruel it’s wild. It’s just so weird why are you guys even here, jsut go away and leave me alone and quit this abuse. 

oof hahahaha.  Idk but for some reason I’m still waking up in a great mood.  Yesterday I had a really good day.  But this dream was just like annoying, and ridiculous.  This advocacy for me to keep giving them chances and convince myself I’m wrong, all while the performative nature was so strong, you know? I’d be fine if it was authentic but not a huge spectical and gaslighting.  The end.