Disclaimer: Everything below is a mix of what I observed and heard during the event. The goal isn’t to pinpoint "who exactly said what," but to share (usually) an outsider's view and overall perspective on these industries. I’m not here to act as a definitive firsthand source—readers should do their own research. I hope this inspires you to attend events, explore new industries, and hear what leaders are presenting. These notes combine my observations with thoughts on how things could run smoother and how ideas connect (IMO). I’m not an expert, you know? Just hanging out in the room with them. Enjoy!My goal was to 100% imply: “save it for later”. The punch line was “not on day 1, cause there’s plenty to be happy about already on that day.”
Great days are coming for our future.
Brick by brick.
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I was too EXCITED (to meet finally after 5 years) and I thought you’d be standing there with roses or something (and maybe BEYOND!! so thats why i made that joke). It failed miserable and I literally had no clue. Its why i was just crying, confused… i felt you’d abandoned me. but you had!!! CAUSE YOU THOUGHT I HAD, but I HADNT - THE OPPOSITE!!!!
I AM NOT LEAVING (but, i mean, i get it… won’t see you today). But I’m here to stay, however that ends up looking hahah. Friend or more. Your’e my dream guy. sorry not sorry. Okay? So. Your company is my best friend. You have a better best friend than me, so, thats good for your sake. but, maybe i’ll get back up higher in the rankings over time and proof (WEED-FREE) Okay? :). I learned to put my money where my mouth is from the best… so get ready for today’s new era: 11:11 Unwaivering Commitment Season, GameStop Edition
But I’d FELT (and… yes, cautiously FEEL) SO GOOD ABOUT US THAT I THOGUHT IT WAS A GOOD JOKE :(. i’m so sorry. but i realize its not nice to joke about.. its so rude of me and had no context unles you were me. it will never happen again. WHY? it wont’ come up in conversation with anyone else. okay? —- but also, no pressure!! I’m not obsessed with you, just one of your assets hahaha. Okay? But your dj-ing skills are awesome too, which makes me realize you are a true true treasure and time with you is a gift. I missed out completley.
My anger/confusion/pain kept building - adding to your interpretation that I legit was DONE!! no way. no way!!! Nope :) hahah. No. Not me. Watch me pull double weight okay? Sit back and watch. You’ll see.
I had no clue i hurt your feelings cause there was 0% evil in my comment/intentions. I literally want the opposite. It was 100% said out of happiness and love…
I was just too excited and careless. but i was NOT rejecting
I finally realize what happened, this morning: you walked me through a parade and made me admit i don’t have your name, think you bought me a house, and then abandoned me not even with a skateboard… BUT MOST IMPORTANT POINT!!! ——— I literally thought there was a huge chance they were talkign about you (the train staff)- since you’d flown all the way there and we finally meet after 5 years - AND SINCE I QUIT SMOKING ON YOUR BEHALF, JUST THE DAY BEFORE, ITS WHY I MADE THAT JOKE. Cuase it was a huge thing, but i’d give it up for you, cause LEGIT I thoguht it was YOU out there preparing BASED ON ALL THEIR WORDING - just by chance and i was like omgmgggg. and it was stupid but i got extremely excited cuase i know we’d talked about how mcuh we care for each other and our huge dreams so i was liek joking - don’t play THAT card today.. you know, just a joke side comment.
I MEANT: don’t play THAT card today - that’s all - that’s all. it was rude now that i see it.
ANd i made the joke. (BECAUSE I OF COURSE THINK THE OPPOSITE! or not!! no pressure) - I care for your heart. your mind. you are incredibel. I jumped too far ahead in my joke (cause i didnt give enoguh context and i literalyl thought you heard them say that on the speaker AND YOU WERE OUT THERE!?!?!? I WAS TOO COCKY AND I ASSUMED)
SO.. please reread this with a fresh perspective and idk. I didn’t want to have to keep running, you know :(. my luggage was so heavy and painful on my back… and yea, i got too angry, but its cause you were being hard on me the whole time, misunderstaing my intentions. My intentions were SO pure. its why i said it. Its why i take the risks i do.
(i thoguth you knew OF COURSE i dont mean it longterm - i literalyl was just wondering what were you preparing out there for me like the train guy said?)
And i could never find you and i was so sad. I was looking for you all night. but now i realize that joke hit so hard on you int he wrong way and was so mean without you hearing that -and since you weren’t htere. ( it osudned like you were out there ready to do something for me according to the train guy!!!!! so i was like ah what?! but still, that was controlling of me too.)
its all i wanted, but i was so tired from carrying all of my bags i just wanted to go a slow pace and finally feel safe. And I lvoe you heart, music selections (for real), and yeah. you know. good luck and if you choose to understand this, i’m teh exact same girl i was on that train before i made that joke. it didn’t have enough context - but if it had, it was funny.
i fight alongside you. like it or not. see you around. I think the world and more of you. The most possible.
…scenic wording…
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I thought this was a guided tour (like someone would take you from START to FINIHS) but, no matter what i did, no one would take me to you and it was breaking my heart. I didn’t realize it goes in segments. AND nothign i could say was brinign me to you. everyone kept ditching me and i couldn’t figure out why - liek the first time when i just broke off and watlked to the water, its cause she was the second person i was gonna follow to you that i couldn’t keep up with. it was so frusterating and sad..and nothing even I said to you was working. tehy’d eventually quit and take pictures, or walk too fast. NO ONE TOOK ME TO YOU!!!! NO ONE WAITED FOR ME :( i just didnt get it!! its why i started to crack and get so angry and in disbelief and attacking you :( but its cause i was like how could YOU treat me like this when it was our time togehter. it was so so confusing. i so badly wanted to figure out where you were. :( but just like, take me there. and then when i did go to places it was so sosososo strange and i got trolled by u or ukw - rude. scary/wild/freaky… but clever. but i didnt even get like what the heck!!?? JUST TAKE ME TO YOUUUUUU help me someone.
the chinese lady with the bear bag quit
every single person quit and no one took me to you ( i didnt get how it worked) and i was getting SO MAD
and then i just got trolled (some girls were so bitchy to me walking by, some guys yelled, “What are you scared”, the baby sobbing, the fake apartment(s)). its why i lashed out so hard (i felt abandoned repeatedly), cause i was wondering how anyone could treat someoen they loved like this, how had you turned on me so quickly and iwas unable to see you: over and over again giving someone to help them find your home, but that person would run away or abandon you? all while i wasn’t even 100% sure you were even in town. It was so heartbreakign and confusing. over and over. every single time i tried to get to you. its horrible
—- but i realize its cause you misunderstood my joke
You were literally 100% innocent, cause you thought i knew how to play that game (minus your minons not totally meeting my needs). But I didn’t understnad exactly how it worked and i wanted to just find you and not feel these horrible feeligns and vibes and people yelling at me
no i realize its cause my joke stabbed you in the heart. it was horrible. but i literally meant it out of excitement casue we just are liking each other, you know? idk its no pressure, but it just feels safe to talk about cuase i feel we get along great. but- liek, save the fun for not THE FIRST date, thats already fun. That was my punchline - not I DONT LIKE YOU AND NO FUTURE. 100% NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO no way!!!!!!
what was going on and i couldn’t figure out how to get to you, literally no matter how hard i tried, so then i got furious. We are suposed to MEET IRL FOR THE FIRST TIME okay?. I coudln’t hear from you and i had no idea how to get to you and every single person i asked you to get to help me abandoned me or trolled me :(. i didnt get it. i didnt get how it worked :( and i coudln’t figure out how to get to you :((((((
they’d just take pictures studddnly and be done walking?? so then i thought you were in a lambo?
or they’d like just start walking so fast i couldn’t keep up. i just don’t speak that language so i was so confused why no one would help me. it was so sad. it was so sad cuase you’re right there and all i want to do is get to you but i didn know how :( - and finally once i figured out “how to follow” and do more person by person… i just kept getting trolled 😭 and it was really scary and sad.
and then the other extremely confusing part was that the train annoucer (one who liked me cause he was on the train last time when i busted them) he said at the ‘seattle station, for arrivall, tehre was a small delay because they were preparing a special setup for “FRESH AIR PASSANGERS” (this is why i told you, ‘don’t propose to me"‘ cuse legit i thoguht you’d be there proposing to me immediately!!! Hahah so cocky. But he said someone was “setting something up for the clean air queen or something and I figured it was me! Since I quit weed for you the day before (HUGE SACRIFICE)”. Haha. Right? Don’t spoil the fun and propose the first time we meet!!) and i even looked around for signlas or clues from other train passangers, lol, just for ranodm - and i got a lot, that you were here. so i was FREAKING OUT like omg he’s hereeee at the fraking train station.
‘and since i just quit smoking my weed vape for you, i thoguht that MUST be me, “Fresh Air Passanger" Girl” , what a randmo hting to say…b ut then i went out of train, you weren’t there…
But then i saw a first guide to tae me to you. But then they ran away from me!!!!
the second ones to get me to you, they SPRINTED like as fast as possible suddnely. and it broke my heart. I felt like it was just “YOU” runnign away from me over and over again :(
i tried, to keep up with them, but i couldn’t. my bags were so heavy and my back was hurting and i was so tired from busting 4 sex-trafficking comanies in like 24 hours, you know? so i physically coudln’t run. i couldnt keep up with her?
This EXTERMELY broke my heart. I didn’t’ understand why no one would help me find you. they all ran away. I was sobbing so much. Eveyoe kept abanding me or saying mean things, when right from the start, after the train, i tried to get to you but the peopel who seemed to be leading me then kept running or ditching me and it was so sad. like, why did he plan this? That i have to run with all my bags after riding on the train 😭😭😭😭 in order to keep up and get to you??? i didn’t understand why this was a requirment cause it hurt my back too much.
so its why i snapped and started walking to the water. i was so mad cause i physically couldn’t do what was required to get to you 😩 and i couldn’t figure out how to tell your or even figure out how to get to youuuu 😭 - its why i got SO mad. like why are you not helping me. why is no one taking me to you!!?!??!?! i was so sad. deep in downtown, ididnt realize, so peopel just took me one step of the way and that was it and it kept making me soooo bad. the’yd be too fast or disappear and i was so sad.
it was so confusing. why did you fly across the coutnry to see me but then you dont even help me get to you?? thats what i was thinking and so betrayed and like a fool or lab mouse, you know? just treated lke a toy and being led never to find you.
but now i reazlie. oh, cause i absolutely destroyed you with that joke (100% unintentionally, i meant it as a compliment hahaha), so you did the same to me… destroy me (but you did it as intentional destruction and i didnt know it, cause i didnt mean my comment how you thought i did. 0% so its why i was so lost).
we never even met.i never even held your hand. so i was crying so soso hard, so many times. i couldn’t believe that suddenly you just dropped me and/or treated me that way and kept giving me peopel to escort me that would purposely ditch me and then i’m just lost over and over again so exhausted, just wanting to hold your hand and be safe. but i felt you were doing this on purpose and i didnt know why. it felt horrible
it destroyed me. i didn’t understand it. what was happening that i couldn’t keep up iwth you? Why? you see. i didnt understand why you were making it so hard for me to get to you. i. didnt get it and i was so sad. so so so so so SO sad.
but rihgt? its cause i completley hurt your feelings and i had no idea. again - cause i really thought you and i were on the same page about our strong, true, deep rooted based off of morals respect/love for each other.
So, i can imagine you had amazing plans and NO IDEA what was going on, why was i being so weird. but i didnt like how you were treating me and running away from me over and over again :(
I was 100% conufsed and i dindt udnerstand why every single time i tried to get to you, no one would take me. From what I knew, i was so excited to see you and we were happy togehter.
so - now we know, i do’nt think we’d ever have anyhting like that happen again. the fight. we can talk more in person - if it is ever even possible ;( i am so sorry for both of us that we had this horrible miscommunication. i just really thought you were messing with me, i COMPLETLY didnt understand how this game fully worked. so it was just so painful over and over agian being rejected and abandoned with no understanding.
it was so sad.
So, i write that i’d sprint, if i could do it again. You see? cause i just didnt even get how it worked and ithought you had to run with them. but, i’d have done whatever it took to get to you. i just couldn’t figure it out this time.
i can bust sex trafficking take downs… three in a day… but i can’t crack the “baton race” on the first try :(
i love you and i want to work with you. let’s fix this asap and makeout, okay 😂🙏
PS: did you know: “cannabis withdrawal causes irritability, anxiety, emotional dysregulation” - so, actually you should at least a tiny bit love that this happened, okay? since i’m quitting my weed vape for you - you’re worth it. okay. pleaes be patient with me (i’ll work on it too 100%) forgive me - you were right. we fight the same fight.
